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2013-02-25 04:08 pm
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Sick needy kids, no writing

Sick Lisa,
dizzy brain,
fluffy clouds of kittens taking over
no writing

Busy days,
lots of calls,
everyone needs me
all at once
no writing

The voices in my head have been silent.
      How can I hear them with all this noise?
 
beep beep beep beep.
awamiba: clock with a different excuse for each hour of the day (excuses)
2013-02-12 10:00 am
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Nothing

No writing this last week.  None.  My spouse has been getting up at the time I normally do, hence blocking me from the bathroom, hence throwing off my schedule.  While it has been lovely having him home in the AM, he also likes to talk to me, which further throws me off.  Also this is a really ridiculous week.  I'm just scheduling myself writing time this afternoon and the housework can do itself.  WRITING WILL GET DONE!! 
awamiba: clock with a different excuse for each hour of the day (excuses)
2013-02-06 06:24 am
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schedules

 I need to get into a writer schedule again.  It's not happening in the morning this week like I'd hoped: the alarm just totally didn't go off yesterday and the day before that  I was too tired and went back to sleep. Nor is it happening in the evening: my DVR is 91% full, so we're trying to catch up on older shows before it starts recording over them.  My days are full of substituting and volunteering. I guess I need to prioritize better. *sigh*
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2013-02-01 06:47 am
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A less dramatical post

 

"My ideas usually come not at my desk writing but in the midst of living."

.Anais Nin

Last Friday night we had a Robert Burns Night with my parents where we read the poetry of Robert Burns (well, Nick did, but that's because he had the best Scottish accent) and had some traditional Scottish foods (but not haggis).  (that's writing related, right?)

Sunday the kids practiced basketball while I  fixed up my desk area where the by-hand writing goes on.
 


It is tidier and makes the writing go better since I'm not scrambling for pens or notebooks.  I've tidied up my computer so I know where the files I'm currently using are and I've set up a profile for everyone else so I can have mine be whatever I want and don't have to worry about boy eyes on my things and them getting confused by the voice control setup that I've been using.
 
I have been writing this week.  Lots of writing and writing related stuff going on.  Working on two novels and a few sad poems.  I'm enjoying flipping through old notebooks and files of writing from a couple years ago to see what I would've written had I not fallen off the writing track.  It's fun putting stories together again and for that I am very  very happy with the universe.
 
Wednesday I was all ready for the call to work.  I got up, made myself lunch, dressed in subbing clothes....and no call.  Of course.  So I did laundry, cleaned the kitchen, and let myself have 2 hours of lovely writing time.  It was glorious.
 
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2013-01-26 08:59 pm

Anyone, anywhere (something I've always needed to see)

 Can I say something?
 
 
 
I just want YOU to know, YOU, whoever you are, whatever choices you've made, whatever wrongs you think you have done, whatever you think you are to the world out there:
 
 
 
I LOVE YOU.
 
I THINK ABOUT YOU.
 
I PRAY TO GOD/THE UNIVERSE/WHATEVER THERE IS FOR YOU.
 
AND I AM WISHING YOU ALL GOOD THINGS.
 
 
 
 
 
I am not perfect.  No one is.  No one has the right to judge you, in your situation, for the things you have done or the things you intended to do, but didn't.
 
 
 
KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED.
 
 
 
It's all I have to offer.  And I want YOU to have it.
 
 
 
Love,
 
ME
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2013-01-21 07:35 am

Writer's Retreat

Sorry I haven't posted in a while.  We were all sick over the Christmas break (upper respiratory flu, bronchitis, then stomach virus) and I was either sleeping or cleaning up messes.  Then I got called up for subbing (I'm a substitute teacher) three days in a row.  Add to that regular daily life, planning for a trip to Ireland & Scotland, and investigating the possibility of going back to school for my master's degree and there's been very little writing worthy to write about: more Sad Poetry, basically, and a few more vignettes.

This weekend was my Writing Retreat with Steph.  We took a condo (really a studio apartment) in Austin, carefully guarding our location so people we knew there wouldn't bother us, and made the drive out there (2 hours for Steph, 5 for me).  We chose the place based on its location to places we knew we wanted to visit (Penzey's spices for appeasing the husbands, Half Price to use my gift card from Christmas, and a couple good restaurants Steph wanted to introduce me to), but planned mostly to stay in and doing writerly things.  Ha.  The kitchen was way too small for cooking, plus we never could locate pots or pans, so we ended up eating out a lot, while discussing writerly things.  

We also perused the writing guides at Half Price and picked up some good ones and read to each other the good bits of those, taking copious notes (well, I did at least) from the good ones.  I also pieced together bits from old story ideas that I thought would go together well in the novel I've been having hang over my head for a while now.  I edited those bits for names and tenses and shoved them into my outline where they belonged (also made the outline, as before I just had one big scene for the novel and that was it).  Then I fleshed some of those bits out (they were mainly just more outlinish things).  In the end I added about a thousand words of actual new writing.  

It was a really great weekend!  :)
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2012-12-21 05:35 am

2.5 years, no posting?

 I had a lovely long post here about writing, which dreamwidth ate while I was checking settings.  :(  It said it autosaved, but it only saved the title.  Silly thing.

Long story short, there was no writing for a couple years, then this weird conglomeration of events (my friend was murdered, my son was assigned a poetry project, and I found a small blank notebook that fit in my purse) started me writing Sad Poetry (my gateway drug to Regular Writing) and POOF I was writing daily again, just small vignettes of dailiness.  It's been good.  In about a month Steph and I are doing a Writing Retreat and then I'll get my butt in gear and work on a novel again.  :)  Can't wait!
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2010-06-13 02:59 pm

Long time, no writing

My grandma died a few weeks ago, after a few bouts of congestive heart failure that her doctor's thought she'd get through nicely.  I wonder about that sometimes, "nicely."  The fact of it was that she was 93 years old and there's no "nicely" about it.  She died.  So I've been spending a few weeks trying to tie up loose ends of school, grandma stuff, camp,etc.  No writing to speak of, not even blog posts. 

That being said, I have a new writing desk.  I am not to speak of how I got it or what it looks like or where it is kept, but it is, in fact, awesome.  I feel nice and calm sitting at it, regardless of the fact that there are kids running back and forth yelling in the hallway behind me.  I've had a few story ideas come to mind while sitting there, writing out condolence letters to aunts and uncles and so forth, so I've been doing the tiniest bit of scribbling those down before moving on to further letters and thank you notes that need to go out. 

The Summer of Calmness starts tomorrow, now that all things camplike are done and over with.  The two big kids will be working on Scout stuff quite a lot of the summer, so hopefully there will be quite a lot of writing time while they're working on Projects and the youngest is napping or watching TV.  I'm looking forward to writing again.
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2010-05-24 08:27 am

An end in sight...

MOPS, Scouts, PTA, Kids' school activities, Sabbath School rehearsals, & programs, programs, programs for all of them; that's where I've been.  Everything in real life has been kicking my butt lately, so no new writing to speak of. 

However, I'm in charge of the newsletter, blog, facebook, & twitter for my MOPS group, which will definitely involve writing.  I have a plan to write articles during the summer while my children are likewise engaged in a writing activity.  I'm also planning on taking off two nights a week from our regularly scheduled TV time to work on novel writing.  I'm excited to be getting back on a regular schedule again.  :)
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2010-04-22 10:10 am

dododo

I've been writing in the car this week, after two weeks of only writing on my Tuesday MDO time periods.  Not that I wasn't productive during all that MDO, because I was extremely productive.  I just found out that if I have my writing notebook in the van with me, I can write during all those little times that I have to show up early for something (like carpool lane at school or to pick something up from someone that's always 10 minutes late).  It's been nice.

I was going to give you details, but my brain is not working and the notebook is, after all, in the van, so no details for you today.  Maybe another day.  :)
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2010-04-08 02:47 pm

Yay, more writing!

I worked a lot on Tuesday on my writing course & got all caught up and one ahead on that.  Part of that was writing about how I'm going to organize for research on my worldbuilding, so I actually went ahead and starting setting up my computer filing system for that.  Then I started looking up stuff to do some research on the real world end of my story.  Productive, productive. 

I also found my paper journal and started working in that yet again.  :)
awamiba: clock with a different excuse for each hour of the day (excuses)
2010-03-25 06:09 am
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I get knocked down. But I get up again. You're never going to keep me down.

I had a bad couple of writing weeks there for a while.  My RA has flared up and writing just didn't seem like fun any more.  Well, nothing seemed fun any more.  So I sat on the couch and watched reruns of Sabrina, the teenage witch and had a pity party.

Then on Monday there was a miracle in my brain and I felt like writing again.  So I worked on my novel a bit...and again on Tuesday (which was the day when nothing made sense in my head)...and again yesterday...and today I'm catching up on blog posts because I've gone a ridiculously long time without doing so.

I have a new desk chair, which has armrests & back support, and something to put my feet on when I'm feeling short (sometimes I don't mind my feet dangling, but sometimes I do) and a place close to the computer to put my writing notebook so it doesn't get lost on the floor of my studio (under all the kid stuff, naturally).  So I am all prepared to be productive again.
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2010-03-02 08:40 am
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750 words

I wrote a post over at my RA blog The Thousand Teeth about my new computer setup after all that talk about "How do you write without pain".  You should go take a look.  :)

Yesterday Lifehacker posted a link to a nifty place where you basically braindump 750 words and it gives you a checkmark for the day and some statistical stuff on your braindump.  Seemed very fun, so I tried it out, but it started freezing up just after I hit the 750 mark, so I never got to see all those lovely statistics.  Still, it was nice to just ramble on about stuff.  I used to do that every day, way back  when I first worked my way through The Artist's Way.  So this morning I got up and tried 750words.com again, but it is still down, so I opened up Writer and worked my way through 750 words over the course of forty-five minutes this morning.  It wasn't as much fun as yesterday, but still interesting to see where your brain wanders.  The downside, of course, is that that was the time period I set aside to post in my blog here today.  *sigh*  So instead of a long description of where I'm at writing wise, you get this:

2YN stats: done through week 10, still need to post several
Poetry: none new
Blog posts this last week:
          Attempted Normalcy: 3
          The Thousand Teeth: 5 (I'm counting two short ones as one post)
          The Brain game (here): this one makes 2
Brain Dumps (as I'm calling the 750 words): 2
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2010-02-26 12:34 pm

The downside of writing

On Tuesday this week I spent all day writing or staring out the window thinking about writing or doing research on something so I could then write some stuff that required actual knowledge of the subject at hand.  After all day in a sitting position, my RA started screaming at me.  Back pain, knee pain, wrist & hand pain, shoulder pain, you name a part, there was probably some effect.  It took a solid 15 hours to get back to feeling relatively normal again.

This is what I hate about writing.  It's the thing that keeps me from doing it, time and again.  Even if I try the dictation software, I still have to sit close by the computer and be able to speak clearly enough for it to understand me and be able to handle the keyboard enough to fix the words and phrases that the computer can't understand (will vs. won't seems to be this week's problem area).

How do y'all overcome the pain of long daily stretches of sitting?
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2010-02-18 09:46 am
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In which the writer loses her work & falls ill...

At the end of January, I visited my friend who lives 3.5 hours away from me.  We had a great visit, but I managed to leave my writing notebook behind.  I wasn't too worried, as I was 4 weeks ahead of schedule on my writing assignments, but she promised to mail it back right away.

Then I got sick.  The kind of sick where you don't sleep or eat, but instead spend your days writhing in pain and whimpering to your children that you wish they'd just get it over with and feed you some poison or something.  I stayed that way for about two weeks before the meds kicked in and my infection started to go away. 

One day I woke up (mid afternoon) and realized that I still didn't have my writing notebook.  Emails on the subject being unanswered, I resorted to calling, and when that didn't work, had my son leave piteous messages on his "aunt's" answering machine.

My notebook finally arrived in the mail (along with my favorite socks & pj's) yesterday afternoon.  I posted my now three weeks late assignment, my two weeks late assignment, and perused the writing forums, where I discovered that many, many people were still way behind and that even the ones that were not that far behind really didn't have all that many comments on their work.  So I went around commenting and adding & subtracting other peoples threads from my bookmark list (some stories were becoming less interesting to me than their blurbs had sounded in my head originally, while others had become so much more interesting).  Then I printed out the next few weeks worth of assignments (I found that I was still ahead a couple, but having regained my senses am interested in writing again now) and settled in to write...
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2010-01-24 04:08 pm

Falling Off the Wagon...

I've drifted off course, writing-wise, lately.  I started off doing very well writing in the paper journal daily, but sometime last week I just...stopped.  I didn't write daily personal stuff or daily fiction or anything else at all outside of my To Do list.

What did I do in the meantime?  I watched the entire Cranford & Return to Cranford & Little Dorritt series' on Masterpiece Classic.  That's about it.  It's amazing to me how good television can suck you away from priorities.

Anyway, I spent yesterday afternoon working away on the novel.  I completed homework for 2YN through week 7.  I like to stay ahead, just in case life intervenes one week and I get nothing done.  Staying three weeks ahead gives me lots of wiggle room.

There was something else, but I've once again forgotten it.  Maybe later.
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2010-01-12 09:28 pm

more novel fun

Still having issues with novel course joy.  I can see that further ahead I'll have almost too much to do in one week, but right now there doesn't seem to be enough, so I've been reading ahead each day and am up to the week five assignment now, which has me working on my setting.  I know that my first setting is going to be real world stuff & they won't be there long, so I'm not obsessing over that portion, but am obsessing over the place that the kids will travel to, which is hard to plan for because, well, I haven't written it yet.  I'm not good with this whole planning thing.  On the other hand, I'm not good at finishing complete novels either, so this all about the learning, right?
*sigh*

In other news, have managed to convince two other people to sign up for the course just by being excited about it.  That's good.  Real life accountability weighs more than just nebulous online person accountability sometimes.  I can't just quit writing if there are people that can come to my door and sit on my couch & stare at me until I write.  And  they would do that, too.  It would be unnerving.  I'd have to write something, if only to get them off my couch.  ;)
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2010-01-11 09:01 am
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WIP: Searching for Uncle

I seriously don't have a better title for this at the moment, but oh well.

Here's the expanded story idea, from my 2YN homework on Forward Motion:

Amanda* and Charles* had a fabulous honeymoon on an isolated island. Upon returning home, they received stunning news: Charles' brother & sister-in-law died in an accident while they were gone Even worse, to Amanda, her new niece & nephews were coming to live with them. Charles traveled a lot for work, so he inevitable left Amanda home to deal with the kids, but then they stopped hearing from him altogether. Amanda has to explain to the children that she & Charles don't really live in the real world and that they must search another world for their uncle.


*placeholder name


(Oh, and this progress bar only updates every 1000 words, apparently. Right now I'm up to 400 on this project)

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2010-01-08 08:11 pm

progress this week

I've been writing in my paper&pen (p&p) journal daily this week, not only life stuff, but at least 3/4 - 1 1/2 handwritten pages of fiction-type stuff. A character sketch or two, a couple little scenes. Nothing big, but daily is better than nothing. Feeling pretty good about it.

Day one assignment of 2YN on ForwardMotion today. Must write a one sentence description & 50-100 word description of my WIP. Mine sound pretty tame so far, but in my mind are better than my little descriptions, so I guess that leaves room for goodness, right?
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2010-01-05 08:07 am
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Switching things up a bit

Part of the reason I've not felt like blogging has been this overwhelming busyness combined with a general ennui caused by the everydayness of said busyness.  So I've let my brain know that I don't necessarily have to post life things any more if I don't feel like it.  I mean, that's what tweets are for, right?  Hehehe.

In the future I'm going to use the dreamwidth account for the writing/projects/brain stuff only, and the livejournal for more personal stuff.  I'm awamiba either place.